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Saturday, November 12, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
Unexpected Heartbreak
If you are in highschool, or maybe even middle school, you might have some experience with something called "love." This generally comes from a boyfriend or girlfriend, and when you go through your first breakup its normally quite painful. This wasnt the case for me, by the end of middle school I had had 3 boyfriends, and none of them had broken my heart. I genuinly really did like them, but when I was dumped I would be upset for 2-3 days before thinking to myself, "well no point wasting time being sad anymore." I'd get myself a new top or jeans that made me feel confident, and go into school flirting with any cute guy who said hi to me.
I'm in highschool now. And I have finally experienced heartbreak. It was the begining of the school year, the Thursday of the first week to be exact, when my best friend told me flat out she didnt want to be friends anymore. It shattered my world. She was my everything. I thought about her all the time, hung out eith her every weekend, I trusted her with all my secrets. All my good memories, for as far back as I could remember, involved her. We, like many teenage girls do, were married to eachother on facebook. When we both changed our relationship status's to single it got a lot of buzz. The next morning when asked about it I simply shrugged and said "we're not friends anymore." When asked why I would shrug again and often walk away. I sulked through my first two weeks of school and begged my parents to send me to a near by private school a lot of my friends attended. I knew it would take awhile so I started talking to people in my classes. Soon I started eating lunch with them too. Only then did I realize that my "best friend" really never was a good friend. With this group I felt happy, like I fit in. With her, it was like she was better than me, she was hotter than me (the guys I liked often fell for her instead of me.) and all of it took a toll on me. I wore tons of makeup, I wore padded bras, I wore as little clothing as possible to try to live up to her, but my attempts never worked. She was always so funny, so sexy, so amazing in the eyes of everyone. I would be lying if I said I didnt miss her, what we had was special, irreplaceable, but if she called me right now and asked to be friends again, I would say no. Right now, I like being an equal part of the group.
I'm in highschool now. And I have finally experienced heartbreak. It was the begining of the school year, the Thursday of the first week to be exact, when my best friend told me flat out she didnt want to be friends anymore. It shattered my world. She was my everything. I thought about her all the time, hung out eith her every weekend, I trusted her with all my secrets. All my good memories, for as far back as I could remember, involved her. We, like many teenage girls do, were married to eachother on facebook. When we both changed our relationship status's to single it got a lot of buzz. The next morning when asked about it I simply shrugged and said "we're not friends anymore." When asked why I would shrug again and often walk away. I sulked through my first two weeks of school and begged my parents to send me to a near by private school a lot of my friends attended. I knew it would take awhile so I started talking to people in my classes. Soon I started eating lunch with them too. Only then did I realize that my "best friend" really never was a good friend. With this group I felt happy, like I fit in. With her, it was like she was better than me, she was hotter than me (the guys I liked often fell for her instead of me.) and all of it took a toll on me. I wore tons of makeup, I wore padded bras, I wore as little clothing as possible to try to live up to her, but my attempts never worked. She was always so funny, so sexy, so amazing in the eyes of everyone. I would be lying if I said I didnt miss her, what we had was special, irreplaceable, but if she called me right now and asked to be friends again, I would say no. Right now, I like being an equal part of the group.
Introduction
This is basically going to be my blog about life as a teenager. If anyone has any topics they would like me to write about feel free to leave a comment. I may also create a formspring account as well for anyone to ask me questions, and I'll pick my favorite ones to write about. I hope you all enjoy my blog.
-Scarlet Ice
-Scarlet Ice
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